Oh gooood. Let's just say it is a REALLY GOOD THING that Yuri Lowell came into Elliot's life as a balance against all of the horrible family shit he has been going through.
Learning what he knows now: that he is the Head Hunter, that his family was very, perhaps unforgivably flawed, are really like reality breaking things for Elliot. He's always been a good boy, but he is now very aware of just how blind he was toward his family. In a way, as much Elliot adored them, he never felt secure, and that lack of security lead to a lot of things (taking in Leo, letting his brothers get away with bad behavior, being unaware of what his family was up to). He can see now how many things could have gone differently if he had stood up to his family instead of worrying about their rejection. And in that way Elliot, as brilliant as he is, is very sixteen. SOMETIMES THINGS ARE HARD, SOMETIMES YOU BURY YOUR HEAD IN THE SAND AND SCREAM REALLY LOUDLY AND REPRESS HARDER.
But, once he is made to face something he can't turn away from it. You may notice a lack of screaming about pride as a Nightray anymore. He does, decisively, still tend to introduce himself by his full name. But it's now less about declaring something he is proud of, and more accepting an unshakable reality/not rejecting his family despite their flaws. But baaaasically he has accepted that maybe the Nightray house was not so great. That said, he will absolutely keep his name and his long term goal is to do something with his life to redeem that name and make it shine again. He has a rough sketching of ideas for things like having an estate in Aather, opening an orphanage (and yes adopting a LOT OF KIDS and probably giving them all the name Nightray...). But that's all kind of... hazy what if's/it would be nice.
His overall thoughts on FAMILY and WHAT FAMILY MEANS has not changed at all! This is a truly unshakable part of him. Rather than thinking that family is not a rock solid important treasure and responsibility, he simply thinks that his family members were flawed and to some degree or another failed both him and themselves and each other. He really has a pretty healthy psychological process 8D; So this is kind of why Yuri STILL STARTS ON A PEDESTAL because family is STILL THE BEST THING EVER, and why a lot of his future plans involve BEING a good family member for others.
That said, outside of when he starts his own orphanage I don't think he would adopt anyone else easily. Adopting Yuri was sort of a... comedy of random events. He first did it because he saw Yuri as someone very dedicated to Vincent, and he was thinking more along the lines of 'I am not going to reject my brother for being gay, so I will accept his lover as my brother-in-law!'. But ... that still means the world to Elliot. Then Elliot got ALL OF THE WORST MEMORIES and Yuri was there for him, and he realized he had been forcing Vincent and Gil into roles that... maybe he shouldn't. So he mostly wanted to verify that Yuri DID want to be a part of the family, and Yuri was like well idk how long Vincent and I will be a thing, and... having put Yuri into the family, it would not be right to put him out over EVERYTHING WITH VINCENT IS COMPLEX AND HARD, so Elliot offered him a more permanent position.
Aaaad. Elliot would not have broken or abandoned his family if Yuri HADN'T been there, but having some good coming into his perception of family at the same time everything bad was being TERRIBLE was certainly a help in keeping him from breaking down.
THINGS ELLIOT IS UNHAPPY ABOUT THAT ISN'T HIS FAMILY EVERYTHING: Leo haaaaate all Personae. Elliot doesn't, but he is feeling a lot less tolerant of Personae as a whole (MINUS FIREBIRD BECAUSE WHATEVER FIREBIRD DERE!!) The FACT that Leo is so unhappy makes Elliot really unhappy he can't fix it. Elliot is always unhappy he can't fix things =T And knowing that what the Personae are doing is ultimately wrong but not having a solution (because he isn't willing to abandon the Heroes, the knights, or the people of this world) really bugs him. It feels like it isn't any better than remaining blindly ignorant.
UH. SEX. Dreaming of having sex with Yuri. YURI HARASSING HIM WITH TALK ABOUT SEX. Just generally feeling like he is really ignorant of something but too awk and embarrassed and insecure to do anything about it. HE'S AWARE IT IS A FAILURE. he is also just like /o\!!!! Because in a lot of ways even though his idea of romance is really ignorant, to HIM it's also kind of romantic. He's a little ._. over Yuri treating wanting to have a relationship with someone that DOESN'T involve constant physical contact like it's a joke. But mostly it's just so confusing and embarrassing and hard and he is. probably going to talk to Leo about it because he needs to talk to SOMEONE but he doesn't want to be any more honest with his insecurities to Yuri than he already has.
HAVE I ASKED HOW DOES VINCENT FEEL ABOUT ELLIOT ADOPTING YURI, and how about the Nightray household in Aather in general (as a family more than individuals).
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Learning what he knows now: that he is the Head Hunter, that his family was very, perhaps unforgivably flawed, are really like reality breaking things for Elliot. He's always been a good boy, but he is now very aware of just how blind he was toward his family. In a way, as much Elliot adored them, he never felt secure, and that lack of security lead to a lot of things (taking in Leo, letting his brothers get away with bad behavior, being unaware of what his family was up to). He can see now how many things could have gone differently if he had stood up to his family instead of worrying about their rejection. And in that way Elliot, as brilliant as he is, is very sixteen. SOMETIMES THINGS ARE HARD, SOMETIMES YOU BURY YOUR HEAD IN THE SAND AND SCREAM REALLY LOUDLY AND REPRESS HARDER.
But, once he is made to face something he can't turn away from it. You may notice a lack of screaming about pride as a Nightray anymore. He does, decisively, still tend to introduce himself by his full name. But it's now less about declaring something he is proud of, and more accepting an unshakable reality/not rejecting his family despite their flaws. But baaaasically he has accepted that maybe the Nightray house was not so great. That said, he will absolutely keep his name and his long term goal is to do something with his life to redeem that name and make it shine again. He has a rough sketching of ideas for things like having an estate in Aather, opening an orphanage (and yes adopting a LOT OF KIDS and probably giving them all the name Nightray...). But that's all kind of... hazy what if's/it would be nice.
His overall thoughts on FAMILY and WHAT FAMILY MEANS has not changed at all! This is a truly unshakable part of him. Rather than thinking that family is not a rock solid important treasure and responsibility, he simply thinks that his family members were flawed and to some degree or another failed both him and themselves and each other. He really has a pretty healthy psychological process 8D; So this is kind of why Yuri STILL STARTS ON A PEDESTAL because family is STILL THE BEST THING EVER, and why a lot of his future plans involve BEING a good family member for others.
That said, outside of when he starts his own orphanage I don't think he would adopt anyone else easily. Adopting Yuri was sort of a... comedy of random events. He first did it because he saw Yuri as someone very dedicated to Vincent, and he was thinking more along the lines of 'I am not going to reject my brother for being gay, so I will accept his lover as my brother-in-law!'. But ... that still means the world to Elliot. Then Elliot got ALL OF THE WORST MEMORIES and Yuri was there for him, and he realized he had been forcing Vincent and Gil into roles that... maybe he shouldn't. So he mostly wanted to verify that Yuri DID want to be a part of the family, and Yuri was like well idk how long Vincent and I will be a thing, and... having put Yuri into the family, it would not be right to put him out over EVERYTHING WITH VINCENT IS COMPLEX AND HARD, so Elliot offered him a more permanent position.
Aaaad. Elliot would not have broken or abandoned his family if Yuri HADN'T been there, but having some good coming into his perception of family at the same time everything bad was being TERRIBLE was certainly a help in keeping him from breaking down.
THINGS ELLIOT IS UNHAPPY ABOUT THAT ISN'T HIS FAMILY EVERYTHING: Leo haaaaate all Personae. Elliot doesn't, but he is feeling a lot less tolerant of Personae as a whole (MINUS FIREBIRD BECAUSE WHATEVER FIREBIRD DERE!!) The FACT that Leo is so unhappy makes Elliot really unhappy he can't fix it. Elliot is always unhappy he can't fix things =T And knowing that what the Personae are doing is ultimately wrong but not having a solution (because he isn't willing to abandon the Heroes, the knights, or the people of this world) really bugs him. It feels like it isn't any better than remaining blindly ignorant.
UH. SEX. Dreaming of having sex with Yuri. YURI HARASSING HIM WITH TALK ABOUT SEX. Just generally feeling like he is really ignorant of something but too awk and embarrassed and insecure to do anything about it. HE'S AWARE IT IS A FAILURE. he is also just like /o\!!!! Because in a lot of ways even though his idea of romance is really ignorant, to HIM it's also kind of romantic. He's a little ._. over Yuri treating wanting to have a relationship with someone that DOESN'T involve constant physical contact like it's a joke. But mostly it's just so confusing and embarrassing and hard and he is. probably going to talk to Leo about it because he needs to talk to SOMEONE but he doesn't want to be any more honest with his insecurities to Yuri than he already has.
HAVE I ASKED HOW DOES VINCENT FEEL ABOUT ELLIOT ADOPTING YURI, and how about the Nightray household in Aather in general (as a family more than individuals).